What dreams may come

So, some time ago, I had issues with my mental health after a suicide attempt.  I'm not going to get into details, but needless to say I had at least one counselor ask me (when I lived in Las Vegas, NV USA) the following:

"So, let's say you were successful in your attempt & died, and God asked you what you would want in regards to what would make you happy, what would it be?"

Of course, at the time, I couldn't answer.  Mostly because I didn't know how to answer in a way that would be understood by the counselors at the hospital at the time.  But over the last decade, I have come to think of a few possible ideas if I had died, or when I do die sometime in the future, decades from now (as anyone would hope).  For the record, I'm not religious, not even a Christian!

This is the overall beginning to each response!

I've died, and I meet with God who asks me (not using my real name):

"James T. Knight, I understand that you were never truly happy in your life.  I understand that there was a lot of pain, anguish, despair, and a lot of abuse & assault that happened in your life.  None of which I ever meant for you to go through.  You didn't deserve any of it!  

That being said, I offer the following.  If there's anything I can do to make things right, name it!  Nothing is off limits!"

Scenario #1

My response: 

"Well, I would like to live out one of a few of my fantasies.  The first being that I am saving the world from an evil parallel universe version of me & becoming an immortal!"

Of course, that wouldn't be a good one to ask for.  There's a measure of dangerous risk involved.  I'd have to be fairly trained, and in good physical condition.  So, that one is off the table.  For now.

Scenario #2

My response:

"I would love to relive a specific moment in time when I got dance with my 6th grade, and hopefully from then on live out a life in which I not only get to know her better, but become someone who remains an intimate and integral part of my life.  Maybe even develop a romantic relationship with her someday."

The only thing with that is it would be undoing her own life, which I'm sure is a fulfilling one with a loving husband, and children that she loves, and I wouldn't want to take that away from her.  If she's happy, then I'm content with her being happy with what life she's made for herself.

That brings me to:

Scenario #3

My response:

"I've been wanting, for the last several years, to find my own Ms. Right.  A woman who, like myself, likes wearing diapers but also sometimes wears them for necessity.  But I'd want her to be able to take care of herself without me if that is what she wants.  Don't get me wrong, if she were to ask for help, I'd gladly do so, but only upon her request.  I'd want for her to help take care of me when I don't feel well, but especially when I know I should be in my diapers, but I am either not feeling well or not wanting to make the effort to get myself into diapers.

Plus, it'd be nice if this Ms. Right were someone who'd make sure I was properly disciplined (spanked) if I would be unruly or misbehaving.  And that she too would gladly undergo being disciplined (spanked) if she needed it.  Ideally, we'd be equals in this manner.

I don't particularly believe in being a dominant or a submissive.  I'd just want for us to be equals to each other.  If she needs a spanking and a diaper change, then I will do so for her.  If I need a spanking and a diaper change, then she will provide that to me.

This would be, by far, the one thing that would.make me very happy.  If she happened to be like me having blindness in one eye (the left eye), but able to still drive, that would be even sweeter on the deal.  I could live with ALL OF THAT!